=)

2010-11-17T08:19:00.000-08:00

Feelings fade.. But memories do not..

2010-09-09T01:57:00.000-07:00

Doctor or Engineer?

Engineering or Medic?

1.Medic UPM

2. Eng. UTM

2010-08-27T00:20:00.000-07:00

Somethings just don't go according to my plan

2010-08-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

Being the best all the time is tough...

How long can I take it?

When will I start giving up and let it go...?

2010-08-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

I don't really want to say this but.. Some people just can't think properly..

They just cannot prioritize what is important and what is not..

I just could not understand them... Why they always bother those small matters and NEVER even look further. No wonder they cannot succeed over here.

I just cannot accept the fact that they cannot think. God gave us a brain for us to think. Come on man... Argh.. Fuckers

2010-08-23T02:46:00.001-07:00

Success IS measured by the number of times you failed, not accomplishment.

I just need someone to tell me the sentence above..

What the fuck wrong with me man? How can I get this kind of result???

Its super embarrassing to say that I FAILED my English test.. I just said..

Fml..

2010-08-20T05:19:00.000-07:00

Never know buying online is just so convenient. Bought some stupid thing this week. Going to start buying stuff online already.

Nokia USB car charger

Golla Phone Pocket G716

2010-08-18T06:37:00.000-07:00

Nothing is impossible..

Somethings are just impossible to happen.

No matter how hard you tried, it's just not going to work out.

Somethings are best left untouched.

Let the pain cease on its own. Although, I know, it will take a few years... Few years...

*Chest felt weird after writing this. I supposed this is what you called heart pain?(Idon'tknow)*

Atzs

2010-08-17T06:08:00.000-07:00

I remembered I read this story somewhere. Somewhere.. I can't remember. I just remember the story.

There's this guy named Ben and a girl named Susan. Both of them are in relationship for quite sometime already. Alan remembered how he propose to Susan to be his girlfriend.

(Shall skip all those romantic moment. Fast forward.)

It was a week before Susan leaving for holiday. Its going to be a long holiday for Susan as she just started her vacation. So, both of them went dating at a shopping complex near town. They had lunch together in a cosy, romantic restaurant. After that, Ben bought Susan some necessary item to be brought up. At the end of the day, after a long day together, both of them were ready to get home. She kissed Ben on the cheek and promised to date with him once she returned home.

Never did Ben know, that was the last time both of them date...

Ben and Susan communicated each other through e-mails and MSN messenger. Both of them were physically far from each other, but technologies brought them closer.

However, something went wrong. Something, but Ben didn't know. Just a day after Ben big day (?), he received a SMS from an oversea number. Ben got his greatest shock of his life. A sms from Susan herself. "Let's break up Ben. I think we are not suitable. Susan". ( The SMS is exactly from the book ). Ben had some event coming up and this really makes him devastated. Ben couldn't concentrate at all. It seems like to him, the world is falling apart.

Few months later, Susan is back to her hometown, physically. Ben NEVER had the courage to talk or even see her. Susan returned home physically, but not mentally.

Ben never thought this would happen to him. He continued his life as if nothing happen. No one knew about their years-long relationship. He suffered alone even until now.

That was 8 years ago..

I can only remember until here. What happen to Susan, I can't remember. Names are not according to the book. They had weird names. So, I just change it.

What happen? Sometimes, I would put myself in Susan's position and think about possibilities of breaking up with Ben. Not to forget putting myself in Ben's shoe.

Relationship is complicated. People changes with time, but memories are left untouched.

I'll won't give up.. I have my objectives in life to be completed.

Atzs.

2010-01-31T04:50:00.000-08:00

Stop study....?

Start working....?

Start supporting myself....?

Stop day dreaming...

After SPM , Before College

2009-12-29T00:55:00.000-08:00

Live is never as boring as today. I feel soooooooooo boring. Want study, don't know what to study. Want play, don't know wat to play. Sigh..
Summary of what I did after SPM.

9/12 - Had a party organised by Eric. Thanks man. Love it.

11 - 13/12 - Worked at PC fair. RM70/12 hours/day.

19/12 - Kursus K.P.P. (For driving)

21/12 - Met up with team johor. Everyone with hair. XD.

22/12 - Went Singapore with Jon, Sarah, Step, (Met Lily halfway) XD. Thank you for planing this trip. Had fun. XD

23/12 - Undang test. Passed. 48/50. Washed the damn wall outside my house. -.-

26/12 - 3 hours of theory class, 3 hours of practical class (1 hour waiting, 1 hour drive, 1 hour makan) XD

28/12 - Went back to school for juniors training.

2009 is coming to an end. Thank you. Had so much of sweetness and bitterness. Looking forward to 2010 for a better future. I miss everyone.

Pendidikan Moral

2009-10-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

http://www.4shared.com/dir/21879717/c56fbfc8/sharing.html

Laporan PPC&P 2009

2009-10-17T02:23:00.000-07:00

Laporan

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=EWUPJ7GV

atau

http://www.4shared.com/file/141472885/d4bbc8af/Laporan_Pasukan_Malaysia_2009.html

Download di atas.

Where is the spirit?

2009-10-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

We are the best.
We are the champion.
We are the greatest champion.
ALL FOR ONE.
ONE FOR ALL

Back then, everyone was very confident. Very.. Keeping as one all the time. Regardless of obstacles. Even if there's quarrel, after sometime, it was as if nothing had happened.

What's wrong now? Forgotten the last 2 lines of the chant?
Come on, many things had happened. Stick together as one. Don't break apart.

Its been quite sometime since all of us went back to our own way.
But of course, I still hope everyone are doing fine now.

Trials' results were fine. Yeah, fine, with all the tips. I can't imagine I'm taking SPM in another 44 more days WITHOUT TIP(S). Gosh... I'm dead man... Bye bye scholarship..

Atzs

2009-09-23T00:25:00.000-07:00

3 months ago, we brought back the Gold trophy.. And now, even if the gold trophy is right infront of me again, I don't feel the glory any more..

Some people asked me before.. Is it really worth it that you sacrificed half a year (5 months tobe exact) for that 1 hour of glory during the dinner?
I don't know.. At times, I feel that its worth it, and at times, i feel that its a waste of time..
But honestly, the whole 5 months, I didn't really bring myself to study at all. That feeling was so nice.
Nah, not for now. I left less than 2 months to the real exam. I don't know how to face it.
Anyhow, time waits for no men.

Atzs

2009-09-22T05:24:00.000-07:00

Finally managed to get my hands to blog.

Seriously.. I don't know what to blog.
Totally no mood to say or type anything.

I once heard this saying,
"People who satisfied with what they have now are ready to die"

How true is it? Another saying, "No one will ever satisfied with what they have". Humans' nature.. Can't be deny..

Til next time..

Atzs

Kementerian-kementerian Kerajaan Malaysia

2009-08-31T05:06:00.001-07:00

Guys, I know some of you might need it. So, yeah.

Senarai Kementerian-kementerian Kerajaan Malaysia

Berikut adalah senarai Kementerian Kerajaan Malaysia setelah rombakan terakhir pada tahun 2009:

Jabatan Perdana Menteri

Kementerian Belia dan Sukan

Kementerian Penerangan, Komunikasi, Kebudayaan & Warisan

Kementerian Kemajuan Luar Bandar dan Wilayah

Kementerian Kerja Raya

Kementerian Dalam Negeri

Kementerian Kesihatan

Kementerian Kewangan

Kementerian Luar

Kementerian Pelajaran

Kementerian Pelancongan

Kementerian Pembangunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Masyarakat

Kementerian Pengajian Tinggi

Kementerian Pengangkutan

Kementerian Perdagangan Antarabangsa dan Industri

Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri dan Hal Ehwal Pengguna

Kementerian Pertahanan

Kementerian Pertanian dan Industri Asas Tani

Kementerian Perumahan dan Kerajaan Tempatan

Kementerian Perusahaan Perladangan dan Komoditi

Kementerian Sains, Tenaga & Teknologi Hijau

Kementerian Sumber Asli dan Alam Sekitar

Kementerian Sumber Manusia

Kementerian Wilayah Persekutuan

Source: http://ms.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kementerian-kementerian_di_Malaysia

Gold Cup

2009-07-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

Well, the Singapore - Malaysia Ambulance Adult First Aid and Home Nursing Competition GOLD Challenge Throphy

Peaceful death

2009-07-13T03:09:00.000-07:00

Died during sleeping is the peaceful form of death.

Hoping for a better day everytime I wake up..
Yet, at times, feeling of sleeping forever overcome my fighting spirit..

Thank God for letting me wake up for a new begining or letting me taste how life is..?

I'm clueless..

When will I go...? Where will I go...? Up or down...?

Atzs

Singapore - Malaysia First Aid and Home Nursing Competition 2009

2009-07-04T02:37:00.000-07:00

Singapore - Malaysia First Aid and Home Nursing Competition 2009

Alright, sorry guys for the late update on my blog. Kinda no mood to blog somehow.

Alright, lets talk about things happen before Sing-Mal.
That 3 weeks before Sing-Mal is kind of relaxing. Honestly, we didn't really train much after nationals. It seems like honeymoon for us. Furthermore, training without NA means the level of fun-ness drops. Can't shout the word TOMATO, SNORLAX, PANDA, BAMBOO and ZOO KEEPER loudly. The people not there. Well, anyway, training still got to carry on. Anyhow, really want thank them for coming to our training sometimes. Then, the last training before Sing-Mal, I quarreled with Zhi Hao. Anyway, that's just small matter. Eventually, things turned out not bad.

Alright, I'm gonna write in sequence. Singapore - Malaysia First Aid and Home Nursing Competition 2009. 21 - 22 June 2009

Day 0 - 1.
1. Night before going to KTM, we stayed at HQ for the night. (Friday night). We had dinner at Shi de fu (hawker centre behind omega) with NA too! Wah, reminds me of nationals. =D.
2. Then, we went back to hq. We were supposed to wait for something, which I forget. Wait, I think is Zhi Hao? Ah, nvm. We had some karaoke. Ok, Shh.. Somewhere. =P.
3. Watch miracle that night, NA came soon after. Thanks girls, you girls rocks. XD. Too bad, they got to go home soon edi. (Prepare surprise I assume? lol)
4. Rest for the night. Lights off!
5. Everyone woke up, bath, and straight to KTM. Too bad, Liang Hui, Zhi Hao and Me got to stay at hq to wait for Mr.Perba come back. (He use the ambulance and fetch the rest to KTM first.)
6. Taxi came, drove at 120km/h. WOW, excellence service. =p
7. Saw NA in train station!!!! They made SANDWICHES for us!!!! Thank you sooo much!! Got bacon, egg and tuna sandwiches. Taste real good man. =D. Li Yin, Eunice, Jia Li, Yiling, Sharon, really appreciate the sandwiches..
8. Mr. Wetak bought an earlier train ticket and when we reached at the station in SG, its 7.00am.. Thats just so early. Ah, nevermind. We joked around at the station there. Until Mr. Perba came to us and asked us to be serious. (Ok, I think that doesn't go into our mind. Lol.)
9. Some SG officer came and greeted us. Wah, want thank Dr. Chen Sze Hua for the teh tarik he treated us while waiting for the other Malaysian Team to come.
10. Everyone came, and the SG officers brought us to their HQ for breakfast. I got to say that their HQ is just so nice. No comments about it.
11. After that, they brought us to Marina Barrage for sight seeing. Another place to have fun. Splashed water here and there. XD.
12. Next up, Furama Riverside Hotel for lunch buffet. An Indonesian restaurant. Haha, too bad, most of the food we can't eat as we're on our mission to champion. =D.
13. Went to Xin Min Secondary School to survey the school. Ok, we were told that there will be no ambulance. WOOTS. Thats great. Save our trouble from bringing victim to ambulance. Hehe.
14. Ok, Royal hotel next. We checked in, bath and rest.
15. Dinner time! Food not bad, 8-10 course dinner. All can be eaten as there is no fried food or spicy food.
16. Went back hotel, went Mr. Perba room to watch Remember The Titans.
17. Mr. Perba motivate us a little before letting us off to our rooms.
18. Day 1 ended. XD

Day 2
1. Woke up, bath, prepare for breakfast!
2. Temperature taking before breakfast.
3. Breakfast is just cool. Buffet. But, no cold, fried, spicy food YET.
4. Went back rooms to get changed.
5. Gather at lobby, and straight to Xin Min Sec Sch.
6. Went to the hall, fall in, waiting for the arrival of VIPs.
7. VIP same, exchange of souvenirs, and Comp start.
8. Kawat, sounds cool, had the feeling of like after the first banging on the floor, everyone quiet. Ok, I admit is was cool when we hentak, but our walking really sucks.
9. Long case - Cpr forever. Thats all I know.
10. Short case - Ok, stupid case, got to write report card for victim. Lol.
11. Fall back at hall, and results out. Results can be taken from http://www.sjam.org.my/
12. Everyone went back hotel, with smiley face. Some of them went swimming pool. Some rest until dinner time.
13. Dinner was great. Sat with SG NA team.. Food not bad. Quite nice.
14. Prize presentation night. Took the gold throphy and pass to Mr. Lai See Ming table.
15. Went to the stage to present a sketch. The Black and White Gang. XD.
16. Went back hotel, bath and get changed.
17. Went McD nearby, its almost midnight!! McD rocks! =D. Had McFlurry. Ate Mr. Wetak chicken wing. =p.
18. Sleep.

Day 3
1. Breakfast. Food food food food food!!! All of us eat like 1000 years didn't eat. Rounds after rounds and finally we stopped.
2. Hug SG teams. Ah, the guys! Not girls. Bid farewell.
3. Went to a shopping complex nearby. Bought yoyos, and music box, food food food.
4. Went back to jb by some transport company.
5. Reached Plaza Pelangi, eat McD. Wahh, a set meal after SingMal. XD.

Summary.
1. Sing-Mal comp is kacang putih.
2. Sing-Mal is all about food food food food food. And I LOVE IT!!

Ok la, I uploaded those pictures already. Enjoy.

Ah.. I love you.. so much that I couldn't put it in words or action. Lol
Atzs (Ambulance Adult Malaysia No.2)

2009-06-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

Ah.. Singmal coming. I'm tired out.

How I hope if there's someone,

who could trust me..
who could care for me..

who could be with me everytime..

How I hope if i could

trust someone..
care someone..
love someone..
be with her everytime..

Atzs

10..

2009-06-12T05:28:00.000-07:00

Coming days are making me emo..
Emoness is back again.
I thought that would not come back again yet...
I was wrong..

The day I made a promise, I'm sure what I'm doing. No doubts.
I really wish that life could just return to the past and change certain things..
I know, that's just the naive part of me.
I'm still so confuse.. Why did I made that mistake..?
Fate..? Destiny...? God's will...?

I don't want my tears to roll down my cheek..
It's just so embarrassing. But, what can I do? I'm useless and helpless.

Darn me... I'm suffering.. I feel so lifeless and empty..

Sing-Mal, you're ruining my life and I'll grab you into my hands... Once and for all..

I'm going off to Ash house tonight.

Atzs

9...

2009-06-11T07:11:00.001-07:00

=(..

2009-06-05T17:55:00.000-07:00

Email From Perbagaran (ASO - Training)

2009-06-05T05:50:00.000-07:00

Dear All,

Please be advise that Team Johor this year have managed to get 2 of our teams through to the Biennial Sing Mal Comp 2009 this coming 21st June 2009 in Singapore. The 2 teams are Ambulance Adult team (3 divisions combination [SMK Tmn Pelangi, MSAB & SSI) and the Ambulance Cadet (SSI).

I would like you all to join force and reach to the venue to give our team a good moral support. For those active members please do come in with your full uniform and for those who have left but have that burning desire please do come in with proper and decent attire. Your support to spread the NEWS is highly appreciated, Thank you.

Please do contact the person below via e-mail for further details via public transport from Johor Bahru. Thank you.

chinsong_teo@hotmail.com

The venue is in XINMIN SECONDARY SCHOOL, HOUGANG, SINGAPORE.

Regards,
Perbagaran

369 - 520

2009-06-04T04:48:00.000-07:00

=)..

369 - 520.

Results

2009-06-01T22:12:00.000-07:00

Ah.. Taste of victory is sweet..

I bought a book, a book regarding team work. The book shall be use by the next combined team in Jb. Honestly, that book really helps.

Sweet memories with you guys/girls.. Seriously, nice training with you all. I'll remember everyone of you here forever. When I gotten a better picture, I'll frame it at my house. A Rather Big picture.. =)

Ambulance Adult Moto

* HOW STRONG ARE WE?*

*TOO STRONG!*

Atzs (Ambulance Adult #2)

Give and take

2009-05-31T23:50:00.000-07:00

Finally, we won. Below are the results of the SJAM 51st National First Aid and Home Nursing Competition 2009.

Ambulance Adult
Kawat - 1. Johor - 2. Melaka - 3. Kedah
Short Case -1. Johor - 2. Negeri Sembilan - 3. Melaka
Long Case - 1. Johor - 2. Negeri Sembilan - 3. Selangor
Theory - 1. Johor - 2. Negeri Sembilan - 3. Kedah

Overall - Johor

Nursing Adult
Kawat - 1. Kelantan - 2. Perak - 3. Pulau Pinang
Short case - 1. Perak - 2. Selangor - 3. Melaka
Nursing - 1. Johor - 2. Pulau Pinang - 3. Selangor
Theory - 1. Negeri Sembilan - 2. Selangor - 3. Johor

Overall - Perak

Ambulance Cadet
Kawat - 1. Wilayah Persekutuan - 2. Perak - 3. Pulau Pinang
Short Case - 1. Johor - 2. Kedah - 3. Melaka
Long Case - 1. Selangor - 2. Johor - 3. Wilayah Persekutuan
Theory - 1. Johor - 2. ?? - 3. Melaka

Overall - Johor

Nursing Cadet
Kawat - 1. Negeri Sembilan - 2. Wilayah Persekutuan - 3. Kedah
Short case - 1. Melaka - 2. Wilayah Persekutuan - 3. Perak
Nursing - 1. Kedah - 2. Perak - 3. Wilayah persekutuan
Theory - 1. Pahang - 2. Wilayah Persekutuan - 3. Negeri Sembilan

Overall - Wilayah Persekutuan.

Overall National Winner - Johor.

Jb made history again.. A combined team won, 10 challenge trophy in hands.
A few moments of glory.

After a sleep at home, I felt nothing.. NOTHING..
I felt that something is missing.. I won so many things, and I'm sure I'll be losing something.
I don't know what is it.. But it sure feels weird. God, can give and take theory doesn't exist? I took many things in nationals, can I not give/lose anything?

Something missing... What is it...?

(Pictures will be upload soon)
Atzs.

Another 'war' ahead

2009-05-28T21:50:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, will be the day..
Another war we waiting 2 months..
A war that determine our next steps..

I waited this day for quite sometime,
knowing that the chances are 50-50.
Nevertheless, confidence that will win us the cup..

Come on guys, girls, WE CAN DO IT.

We shall make a history where ALL of us be nationals champion,
and ALL of us go Singmal. That day will be the sweetest day ever.

Miracle Mixed Team. (MMT)

Wish us luck. =)

Atzs

=)

2009-05-09T16:06:00.000-07:00

I'm tired..
I'm taking a short rest for now..

Atzs

Red Tea

2009-05-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

I'm sure msot of you had tried those drinks sold at "Cool Blog". But have you all tried the red tea, with added flavour? Let me tell you how it taste. It taste sweet at first, then sudden it became bitter.

You know, the moment I taste this thing, I started to think back..

Its better to taste sweetness first or bitterness first?

or is it better to taste bitterness first?

Life.. and also drink.. I think it's better to taste the bitterness first.

Conclusion, red tea sucks yet im addicted to it.. Its kind of addictive. So, take extra care when you drink.. =p.

Atzs

Break Point

2009-05-08T15:33:00.000-07:00

Sometime around last few weeks, a bowler told me something that I didn't know. In a bowling lane, there's a point where it is called as a break point. Its located somewhere at the end of the lane. Why is there such point in a bowling lane? I don't know. For your information, the lane is actually oiled until somewhere at the end where it is oil-free. Normally, when the bowling ball approaches there, it will somehow curve to the right/left (depending on the way you throw the ball).

All I can say is 2 things. After the ball reaches the break point, you will either strike or the opposite. Look, you carry on your life, just like the bowling ball. You'll drop/break/topple down in the middle of you life, just like the break point. You will either succeed or fail in life after going through the break point. Strike? No strike? Up to you... (I'm going through the 2nd break point...)

Mid term is just few days away. I told myself, sacrifices had to be made.. and I chose to sacrifice this. Sorry teacher, this is the one and only one exam that I will sacrifice.

I'm tired... I'm restless... Shall I carried out my plan now...?
Maybe not... Lets wait until next week and see...

How nice if I could sleep and never wake up..
I will have eternal rest..
Atzs.

Mid Term Time Table

2009-05-08T15:26:00.000-07:00

2009-05-08T07:00:00.000-07:00

I'm breaking down soon..

Busy

2009-05-02T16:15:00.001-07:00

Its been quite sometime since my last post. I really thought I could have my own sweet time on the weekends but I'm wrong. I'm still busy settling those forms. I made a rather big mistake this time.. I'm really really really sorry about it..

Man.. Mid term coming and seems that I don't have any time to study.. I'm pretty sure I going to do not so well in this exam. Forgive me teachers... But still, I will do my best.

I experience a life that normal adult would have gone through.. I prefer to study now.. =(..

Alright, I found one article. I don't want my blog to look dead.

( Its just a copy and paste article. Don't bother reading it if you don want. Cuz I myself didn't even read it.)

In today’s relationships men seem to have problems with how to love a girl.
I say this because most of what is said about dating revolves around playing hard to get and never revealing all your emotions.
This can be really contradicting if you want to show a woman that you really love her.

A lot of men will be reluctant to demonstrate their love for a girl because they claim it shows a sign of weakness.
This fear is not really about weakness, but rather the fact that they fear that they will be hurt if the girl doesn’t reciprocate the feeling.

If you’re going to love a girl, love her for who she really is, including her qualities and her faults.
This usually means that you will have to get to know her before declaring your love which is a step that many guys skip.

In fact, if you truly know the girl in question, you’ll already know how she feels.
Once you know, and you feel the moment is right, just tell her directly.
There’s no sense in playing it safe, you’re either all in or you’re not.
Best of luck !
Written By Chris Calo

Alright, no comments

Atzs.

2009-04-20T12:47:00.000-07:00

I'm stressed out...

Atzs

2009-04-14T06:33:00.000-07:00

My heart aches everytime I read it..
My eyes became watery everytime I think of it..

I guess I'm one of the most stupid person on earth..

I'm really sad...
Atzs

Time is running

2009-04-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

Guys... Time is running out.. 56 days isn't much.. Starting from next week, I really hope all of us could start training already. We've got to strive for perfection since nobody is perfect. No harm trying to be perfect right? If you don't try, you never be perfect. Not even 80% perfect.

Always remember this, no one is born to do everything, but they are born to do something. This is why in a team, there are 5 people. Each has their own responsibility. However, be sure to know every one's job somehow.

Come on guys, girls, time is running out. Time doesn't wait for us.

Ah, enough about comp for now.

Congratz to EC Drama team for winning their drama competition. All the best for next level. I'll be supporting you guys from the back. =).

I miss yoyoing..

Atzs

Let it go..

2009-04-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

Let it let go my friends... Certain things are not meant to be with you. The longer you hold it on, the longer the pain is. Friends.. Let it go.. Trust me, you rather feel the pain now. It's just a matter of time that you're going to feel the pain. Which pain you would want to feel it, my friends...?

Being the best you could doesn't seems to be the solution at times.

Being a samaritan isn't a good idea though.

Life is strange. Sometimes you'll get the opposite of what you expect. "Welcome to the real world". Real world is not as in those story book where it says 'berbuat baik, dibalas baik". Hm... Fuck it.. That doesn't apply to everyone. I'm really tired of it when people keep say just do good in life. Man.. Good people are always being bullied. Bad people are always being look down. So which side of guy you all want to be my friends..?

Seeing this picture and memories running through my mind. All the time we spent together, all the time we trained together, all the time we have fun, all the time we laugh together, all the time we cried, I'll never forget in my life. I'm really really happy being with all of you.

AA - Zhi hao, Jet, Sean, Le bin,

NA - Li Yin, Eunice, Jia Li, Yiling, Sharon,

AC - Kuok Zhen, Jian Wei, Dylan, Neo, Liang Hui,

NC - Zhi Qin, Jix Wei, Chee Yuan, Inn Qing, and Hui Ling.

Atzs

Reflect Yourself

2009-03-31T05:11:00.000-07:00

Its my last day of 'holiday' for me. I've got to resume my daily routine after this. Man, that's kind of sad though..

I'm still having the guilt in my heart... How to remove it..? Tell me.. I hate that feeling of guilt.. I guess I have to reflect myself and think.. Why the heck did I do that...? Gosh.. I better improve within these 7 weeks... I trust myself.. I can do it..

Sometimes its good to reflect yourself in the mirror.. Look! Look! Look CLOSELY!

How weak can you be...?
How strong can you be...?
How capable are you...?
How responsible are you...?
How irresponsible are you...?

Think think think think...!

Everyone feels sad when they can't get the things they want. Or maybe things just wouldn't go on your way... I'm not excluded... I'm human, I have feelings too! Man.. Why am I still having this strange feelings...? =(..

I'll upload the pictures of state comp once I get it from Shafiq.

Atzs

2 days more

2009-03-27T05:46:00.000-07:00

As day passed, as time passed, the day is finally reaching soon. A day where all of us are crowned as champions.

How I wish if there's a pil that can make me an instant champion. Haha, I know I'm day dreaming here. Alright, SJK(C) Jemantah 1, the place where we compete.

All of us trained for about 1 month and 1 week already. Just think about all the push ups we did, all the runnings we did, all the punishment we did.. I know I'm being materialistic. So what? Thats how the society is now. For all punishment we did, we have to expect something in return. Yes.. and that something is being crowned as Champion of State for now. And after that, Champion of SINGMAL.. Personally, I really hate giving up halfway when I sacrifice so much for it.

Lets take a look at my home exercise which I NEVER skip doing it.

For the first 2 weeks (was it 2 weeks or 1 week?), Each day 20 push up in the morning, and 20 in the night for 13 days.Total up is 520 push ups.

For the following 3 weeks ,Each day 50 in the morning, and 50 in the night for about 20 days.Total up 2000 push ups.
(Somehow, it just help me a little bit. I'm not sure what happen to my hand but, I'm still not strong...)

And running/jogging 125 rounds of basketball court is crazy. My team manage to do it.. and another 50 rounds after that.. My legs are still shivering...

Come on guys and girls! Sunday is the day where we prove to everyone that ALL of us CAN pass state level..

May the best team win..

Random pictures. =p

Those paper cost RM6. lol

Yeah.. I can win! XP

Guess how much those cost? RM3.50 (chicken rice), RM1 (lime juice), RM2.50 (Meat) = RM7. lol

Atzs.

Pictures Area Comp 2009

2009-03-27T05:28:00.000-07:00

Alright, below are the pictures I promised to post when i received it. Enjoy? Lol..

Uniform Check.

Before maching

During marching

Before mara menghadap?

Lintas Hormat

Case. Er.. Long or short? I forget.

No.1

No.2

No.3

No.4

No.5

All credits goes to Jonathan. Thanks man..

Atzs

2009-03-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

Saying 'NO' to good things
so we can say 'YES' to the best thing.

Have you ever wondered what's best for you? Or what's the best decision?
I can say that not everyone able to make the best decision ALL the time.

Lets talk about things happening in school.
Same old Ivan the gay, often touching my tights during bio and chem class, in return, he'll get some of Mui Ju's secret technique. Ask him if you're curious what is it. =p

Small eyes jonathan, usual cool looks on his face, pretending sleeping in the class and eavesdropping others. (alright, thats a joke).

Weirdy sean, with all his creative actions he does in class, often leave everyone with a smile on their face at the end of the day.

Ashwin, being the monitor in class, often became the scapegoat of 5C when something happens, eg: class dirty (monitor!! why never ask them to tugas!), forgot to pass up books (Monitor!! Why never collect!!) Ok, thats just part of it. Right ash? =p.

Twinny twins of the both KONGS. Well, both of them are kind of humerous too! Always being weird like Sean sometimes. =p. Pardon me for saying that.

Harpreet, the one of the 2 singh singh in my class. He's really a funny guy, a guy who doesn't care much about troubles (carefree).

Yoges, the one who borned with special eyes. People often tease him but still, I think it's special to have that kind of eyes. Wait wait wait, but I don't want it.

Pervinder, the kind of nerdy guy. I respect him for his initiative in finding out asnwers from others.

Lastly, Jayaseelan, one of my DB in prefect, and member of the back table gang (consist of harpreet, yoges, pervinder and jaya himself). I thought he would be the one who will show his 'jayaness' but too bad, he didnt.

Thats all for now, classmates who sits in my row. (except for ivan, jon, sean). You guys diversified the class. LOL.

5 more days... May the best team wins.. (TEAM JB)

Atzs

6 days

2009-03-23T04:54:00.000-07:00

6 more days. Yes.. Its just 6 more days.. to my sjam state level competition. Well, again, saying not nervous is a lie. I really feel kind of nervous as days passing by. Anyway, no use complaining here.

Gonna upload some district pics when I get the pcitures from Jon.

Nobody remember who came second.

May the best team win. (Team JB 2009)

Atzs

11 Days

2009-03-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

Just stare at both of the pictures below...

I really feel damn sad when I looked at the pictures above.. The place where WE trained for more than 4 years. Many sweet and bitter memories filled within this "ancient" land.

=(.. I'm sure many of US feel the same way too.

Another dose of emoness on me..

Atzs

12 more days

2009-03-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

Everyone enjoying their lovely holidays this week (except me).. Everyone gets to do what they want (yes, including me).. I had this kind of very strange feeling.. I'm tired yet I'm not. I'm exhausted yet I'm not. I'm sleepy yet I can't sleep. I really hate this feeling.

I hate the feeling of losing. Especially when I worked hard for it. I know, losing is part of life. Accepting the fact is hard. Accepting the false is much easier. But, have you heard of the phrase, no pain, no gain? How about feeling the pain and no gain? This would definitely leave a deep scar on my heart. Never judge a book by its cover. Heard of the story of one of my friend? The one who looks so cheerful and carefree is actually the one who suffered deep inside their heart. Obviously, time will cure it but how long must it be? 1 year? 10 years? 20 years?

Some memories are hard to "delete" from your brain. Again, I emphasized that time WILL cure. I wonder how long will it be before I forget about it. Nevermind about that.

Alright, competition is just 12 days away. WE MUST WIN. Yes, WE.. I emphasize the word WE as in case my team won the state level, I don't really wish to train with other district members. All the time we trained together, all the time we spend together, all the knowledge we received, all the skills we accuqired, and all our sacrifices we made, do you want all that to go directly into the drain? Personally, I think no one wishes that. Just one phrase to say, May the best team win.

Anyway, will upload the competition picture asap when I received it from zhi hao.

Thats all for now.. I'm tired.. But it's all within my mind...

Atzs

Finalizing Div.1 shirt

2009-03-07T06:01:00.001-08:00

Division One 2009 shirt

2009-03-05T05:09:00.001-08:00

As some of you might seen, the picture below is just a beta version. A few changes is yet to be made. Just be patient and wait for the finalize design. Thanks

09

2009-03-04T02:42:00.000-08:00

May The Best Team Win

2009-02-20T23:32:00.000-08:00

Alright, a post before stepping into SMK Permas Jaya 2.

First Aid and Nursing Competition 2009, Area of Johor Bahru.

I guess its been quite sometime since a combined team is formed.

EC + Pelangi = EnCoPel?

Sounds weird isn't it. Ah, nevermind about the name of the team.

All I know is losing to other team is embarassing. Still, may the best team win.

All the best to all competition team members. Lets bring the Gold Cup back. =)

Atzs

Birthday Wishes.

2009-02-19T05:10:00.001-08:00

Hey.. A special post for some bithday's guys/girls.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Ko Yan Rui (16th)

Chua Chin Fang (18th)

Lim Hui Zhi (19th)

Ng Zhi Hao (19th)

All the best in life. =)

Atzs

Another Dose of Emoness

2009-02-14T07:19:00.000-08:00

Sports Day passed 2 days ago. I really got nothing much to write about it. If you want pictures, just go to these 2 blogs http://the-white-sands.blogspot.com/ and http://thekinglearntoblog.blogspot.com.

Sometimes, when you are not fated to something, no matter how much you do, it will never be yours.

Sometimes I wish to give up.. Yet, there's always a tinge of regret when I gave up on something. The higher your hopes, the higher your disappointment. I really don't know what has happened to me recently until I'm such an emo freak who goes to school and talk cock to my classmates and teachers. Alright, I'll try my best not to filled this blog with emoness. (just a lie)

I made a wrong decision everytime.. My prediction always wrong.. Everything seems on the negative side.. Why...? Why can't thing goes as I planned?? How long can I take all these???

WAIT!!!...

God treat everyone the same. It's just the mentality of people who thinks God is unfair. The concept of give and take applies to all. You give God something, and God give you something in return. Don't ask me what I gave.... All I know is I don give much...

AHhhh... Better stop writing weird stuff or else everyone will be weird after they read.

I like my class.. I'm able to hide almost everything in my heart there.. Everyday, every morning, just by looking at Ivan, Pira, Ash, Nelson and others made me cover up all those weird feeling.. Ever wonder how would I be when I'm alone? I'll be day dreaming the whole time, thinking/imagining/fantasising what could my life be next time.

Will I be a successful guy?

Will I be some failure?

Will I be working in big company with high post?

Will I be working as a cashier/staff/promotor in some shopping complex?

Will I be someone lazy?

Will I be someone hardworking?

Will I be someone who don't have any job?

Will I be someone who takes up to 2/3 jobs at a time?

Will I ever meet someone I really wished to see after a long time?

Will I meet the one I hate everyday?

I'm crazy..

Nite...

Atzs

2009-02-09T07:11:00.000-08:00

It is said that a good leader would stand firmly when problems come. A bad leader would do something to compromise the problem, or to back out.

My life has been going up and down all the time. Mostly down. I'm unable to stand firmly, does that make me a bad leader? Problems passing by me and stopped by me like nobody business. I'm tired of all this.. Problems = Challenge. However, this is too much to handle. Almighty God, guide me towards the correct path...

Most people planned to continue study right after SPM or maybe after results. Once, I do planned to further my studies somewhere which is available. To be honest now, I don't really want to study anymore. My conditon now is not up to standard to be in some unknown college or universities. Prestigious college and universities is a dream to me. It would not happen. I believed I could study again after working a few years somewhere. XD.. Hope a miracle could takes place.

"Discipline is doing something that you don't want to do, so that you could do what you really want to do"

Atzs

Holding on...

2009-02-08T01:50:00.000-08:00

Today's meeting with them turned out to be a negative result (NO). I'm sure he, Mr.P feels disappointed about it. I'm sure he won't give up trying finding another one. And yeap, I decided to go all out if there's any. Of course, without affecting my life.

I'm holding on now... For the sake of something.

Still feeling not so good... Life's up and down~

Atzs

Dilemma

2009-02-07T03:53:00.000-08:00

Life is not going the way I want... Why am I living in this condition? I know, there are people who suffered more than me now but I'm not as strong as them.. Again, eating my breakfast this morning with my tears rolled to my cheek.. I think whole night and whole afternoon plus evening, I made a decision. People around me might suffer just for a while.. 11 more months. Please bear with it for 11 months..

Alright, that problem solved just 60%. Never mind, leave it.

Minutes ago, someone called me, I shall name him A. I got a shocked when he called me and say someone wants to meet me. I know what that guy wants from me (someone). I had another dilemma. There's a choice in front of me. YES or NO. Lets look into this.

If I say yes.
My life will change again for the time being.
Totally no time for myself.
Gain glory for **** **.
Working with different people.
Thinner (lol).

If I say no.
Regret.
Disappoint others.
Life will be as usual, nothing different.
Fatter (lol).

To be honest, I have the thought of saying yes. Again, conditions determine choices. If I say yes, I've got to plan my life again. If I say no, I have a tinge of regret.

I hope I'll make the best decision by tomorrow..

Atzs

Choices

2009-02-06T04:39:00.000-08:00

Do I have a choice now?

It says that "choices determine conditions and NOT conditions determine choices".

I'm really confuse.. Tears rolling down my cheek as I write this post.

I really don't know what to do... I can't blame God for having this life as God treats everyone the same. I made a plan at the beginning of the year.. But now it seems that I have to change the plan. I'm in a state where conditions determine my choices. I thought I could do as what it says above (blue sentences), somehow, I was wrong. In special cases, conditions determine choices.

Alright, there's this guy whom I know since when I was small (really small), name S. S had a happy family before. He's one of the most cheerful guy I ever met in my life. Academic wise, he did really well. Co curriculum wise, he hold quite some post in some clubs and uniform body. Personal life, I'm not really sure. Normally, I don't see any negative aura coming out from him.

But now, I could see the sadness in his eyes, I could feel his sadness form his heart and I could hear the sadness of his words EVERY TIME I see him. At first, I don't really know why I could see, feel, and hear his sadness. Once, I asked him if there's any problems he had. He smiled and answered, " Nah, Don't worry. Thanks for your concern." I know there's something wrong with him.

After a week, a friend of mine, who is the same school as him told me that he resign from all his extra Co curriculum posts and also ALL his tuition. I shocked when I heard that. Soon after, I managed to contact him at night. I asked him why he did that and so, he said, "My family needs my help financially now. They supported me throughout my school life, and now it's my turn to support them. Although this might be the last year for me in school, but they need me the most now and I can't possibly leave them alone. My studies can delay, but my family can't. By the way, I won't be around everyday until 10pm. So, if anything, just contact me after 10. Keep in touch, Alex." Thats what he told me through phone.

Look, in this case, conditions determine choices.

What am I supposed to do now....? I really have the tendacy to drink insecticide + coke...

Don't ask me why...
Atzs.

2009-01-31T02:38:00.000-08:00

My 'emoness' is back again and this time is a real big one.. CNY mood is gone.. Schooling mood is still not back yet.. I really don't know what to do now.. I'm confuse..

God, guide me towards the correct path... I'm really lost here.. Alone with my shadow... How can I ever get back to the place where I used to be..? A place filled with fun and happiness.. Almighty God, help me.. =(..

Happy Bday

2009-01-31T02:37:00.000-08:00

Happy 17th Birthday..
Speacially dedicated to Kim Goh.XD

Confuse

2009-01-28T22:41:00.000-08:00

I'm confuse.
What am I living for...?
Who am I living for...?
Anyhow to see my future now...?

How bright will my future be...?
As bright as the star...?
As dim as a candle...?
How dark will my future be...?
As dark as the night...?
As dark as the moonlight...?

Can I just see my future and end my life now...?
Any machine to detect my true feelings...?
Am I showing my true feelings...?
Am I faking all this while...?
What does true feelings mean...?

I'm confuse..

Atzs

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-27T06:43:00.000-08:00

Happy Lunar New Year everyone!!

Eve wasn't really that fun. This year no firecracker for me. Nah, that's not a problem. On the eve of every year, my dad would set up a table right outside my front door and prepare some stuffs to invite the God of Wealth. Legend says that if you invite the God of Wealth to your house, He would blessed you with abundance of wealth throughout the year. Alright, there were joss stick, incense paper, candles, rice wine, tea, mix vegetables?, pineapple, lie, banana, 'nian gao', oranges, and pamelo and pink cup cake?. Alright, after setting up those things on the table, my dad waited for the right time to invite. Well, I don't really know the exact time but, nevermind la. After watching those fireworks played by others, and around 12 something, my dad start to pray. Thats the end of the begining of the day..

Everyone woke up late on the first day, as usual, and my family went to one of my aunt house. Then, we moved on to my grandmother house and stayed there until night. Ang pao collection was fine, not much, and not less. I'm contented with it

Second day, again, I woke up late. Around 10am i think. Played Need for Speed a while and then wait for the others to bath. Aroudn 2pm, we started our short yet 'nice' journey to another aunt hosue in setia indah. Nothing much to talked about actually..

I wished to say something here. Everyone on earth lead a different life. There are rich and poor people out there. Arrogant and humble people out there. Logical and unlogical people out there. Healthy and sick people out there. Smart and stupid people out there. What I'm trying to say here is life is predestined. What you are now is a gift from GOD. Just... Just.. Try our best not to complain too much. GOD actually really fair to us. People with wealth usually poor in health and people with health usually poor in wealth. In life, we have to try to balanced both health and wealth together. Don't ever be greedy and want EVERYTHING in life. Think for others everytime and at the same time, think of our ownself.

Ahh... I gila edi la.. Don't read my craps... lol..

Atzs

3rd week.. Freaking Week..

2009-01-26T06:08:00.000-08:00

Left one more week to CNY. So, again, teachers want blast us all Chinese with 'ang pao' (homework). Gosh, I wonder when will I ever finish those homework. Obviously first few days of CNY will be my laziest day of the year. Sure feel damn relax and waiting for ang pao rolling into my pockets.

Another big shoutout to these few people.

Happy Birthday!!

Wong Sue Yinn (19th)

Vinesh Nair (22nd)

Kareema Ramli (24th)

Wee Woon Sin (25th)

A year older now, and a year matured

Now, before anyone of you proceed reading this post, please pardon me my language.

Man, on that fucking friday, which is on the 23rd jan is really a mother fucking day to some of us. Well, everyone was training on Friday for that fucking marching comp. Alright, then this fucking guy (Ironman, his name), wanted to faint and so, he asked permission to get lost of the fucking squad. Ok la, then the commander say he can go off. But hor, that guy walked just fucking few steps and he fucking fainted on the ground! Ok la, I really pity him as he suffered mild injury from the fall. Til then, I haven't feel any hated YET. Being a GOOOOD guy, I treated him and requested someone to call for his parents. Ok la, called already and the parents sounds mad.

Alright, their fucking parents came. Walao eh. the mother like fucking gangster lor tatoo whole body. Come only then say want chop our legs down. Ok la, I already so fucking good call you come and treated your damn fucking son and still want chop my legs off. You know what the mom said? " Who give you the permission to train like this? Who you think you are? Young man, you didnt know the army training killed someone in singapore?" Fuck you la..

Every school has its own way to handle the uniform body. I will never take your fucking words into consideration anymore. If everyone thinks like you, there won't be any glory ANYMORE. Please la, who are you to tell us what to do? Who the fucking hell person are you to comment this and that? You're just a fucking parents of a member of this uniform body. NO AUTHORITY AT ALL. A malay proverb says " Masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang kerbau menguak" NEVER HEARD BEFORE IS IT? Now I tell you, it means where you go, you should be able to adapt to their culture and lifestyle. If we don't train under the hot sun like that day, you think they can stand the fucking heat during duties? Do you think they can be as tough as now? I understand, ironman has medical condition but remember, we don't force anyone. Yet, we don't even know he has medical conditions until he fainted and injured himself. If you want fairness for your own, how about us? Where's the word of fairness for us? I swear, I'll continue how we used to be, if you not happy, GO AHEAD AND LEAVE US ALONE. NO ONE STOPPING YOU. I really feel damn fucking pissed with you man. If you leave us alone, and we leave you alone.

FUCK..

(a NON edited version of story)

Atzs

2nd Week of January

2009-01-25T21:33:00.000-08:00

Its another update for the month. Really sorry for those who waited some new post.

Nothing much had happened in the 2nd week. Well, the only big thing that happened is that 12th of Jan is my birthday. XD.. But somehow, I just don't feel any birthday feeling in me. That Monday, luckily I have KK Ng and his girl company me or else I'll be alone eating baskin ice cream. Well, thank you so much for accompanying me on that day although I might be a lightblub for you two. =p.

I received some presents from my dear dear friends. These are the things i received from them. =D.

From Nelson

From Sean

From my mates.. =). (Ivan, Jet, Jon, Sean)

From Evy

From Chin Fang and Joey

(SHIRT) From jet.

From Ash (Something hidden inside) =p

And another gift from Amirul.So sorry.. I don't have the picture of that.

Thanks so much for all the gifts and wishes you all gave me. I appreciate it very much. =)

Not to forget, I passed my adult first aid test. I'm officially an Adult member of St. John. =). Congratz to those who passed your test, and for those who failed, try again next time. Never give up on yourself as I never given up on you guys.

Again, another big shoutout to some b'day people.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

Me! (12th)

Everlyn Heng (16th)

Kaytrieese Tee (16th)

Edmund Hang (17th)

Tan Li Cheng (17th)

Hope you guys/girls have a wonderful year.

Thats all for now. Another update coming.

Atzs

First week of school

2009-01-25T21:16:00.000-08:00

It's time to blog again! Basically, first week in school was a blast. Teachers started blasting us with homeworks right on the first day of school. Nevertheless, I stayed back everyday during this week to train juniors and tuitions. FYI, I have tuitions on every Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. Nevermind, thats not tough to me..

Alright, let me introduce all my subject teachers here. Teachers reading this blog, please do not feel embarassed if your name apprear here. XP.

BM - Pn. Zaiton
BI - Pn. Aisyah
Maths - Mr. Lim
Add Maths - Cik Aida
Chem - Pn. Fadhilah
Bio - Pn. Haslawati
Phys - Mr Ng
Sej - Pn. Daisy
Moral - Pn. Zakiah
EST - Pn. Selvamala
PJ - En. Fahmi
Sivik - Pn. Siti Sara

Alright.. I guess thats all the teacher who taught me throughout the week.

Juniors progession - 10%.

Last thign before I end this post, I would like to me a big shoutout to some birthday boy for the week.

Happy Birthday to

Raymond Loh (9th)

Lee Soon Leng (9th)

Hor Weng Yao (10th)

A year older, a year wiser. May all your wish come true

Alright, thats all for the week.

Atzs

Fuck...

2009-01-24T04:45:00.000-08:00

Fucked-up...

End of Holidays

2009-01-04T04:38:00.000-08:00

End of our lovely, happy, sadly, holidays. Tomorrow will be our first day in school in the year 2009. Finally school reopen. I waited this day since the time I taken holidays. Around mid December I think. A brand new term, a brand new life, and a brand new resposibility. 10 more months will my be SPM and yet, I'm still wasting my time blogging. This shows how lazy am I. Heck, 3 or 4 months before SPM only I study.

Again, today was another boring day. Well, tuition supposed to start at 8.30am, and I thought it was 8.45am. The time I realised that it starts at 8.30am, It was already 8.25am! I rushed everyone who is following me out. At last, I reached at 8.35am. Today, my brother had to go SDJ to register for form 1. Sadly, he's in SDJ. No offence to SDJ guys but I still prefer him to go to SSI instead of EC or SDJ.

Another thing I really want to say out here. Today, there's this group if blacks passed by my house while me and my dad washing the front wall. Then, this guy, come and asked my dad if he want to repair the road in front of my house. First, it was RM250, then RM200, finally Rm150. Alright, honestly, my family financial status isn't strong, so I strongly against this guy. Now, the thing is, it seems like my dad being hypnotised or something. He agreed! The price slowly increase to RM170. What the fuck with this guy man?! Ok, never mind, I calm down. Then I heard him said RM180! WTH? As you can see, this guy keep increasing the price. Good thing I was there. I told him "Abang, kau tadi kata 170. Kenapa sekarang 180? Nak 180, jangan buat."

Finally, he keep his fucking mouth shut and do. If he ever come here again and talking cock with me, I swear I'm gonna be harsh next time. Fuck...

Random pics:

(from right: Ivan, Alex, Jet, Jon, Sean. 2nd March in SAB)

Sweet and bitter memories. The day which determines our future. At the end of the day, 1st runner up for Ambulance Cadet category and 3 theory winners under AC.

I hate these feelings...

Atzs.

Pictures of lighter

2009-01-02T07:14:00.000-08:00

Lighter

2009-01-02T04:44:00.000-08:00

Today was rather interesting. Went to school at around 10 in the morning. Why? All of you might asked. Well, I just wanted to put back those prefect files while lepak with Nelson (to get some info) and Ashwin. What I did? When I reach there, it was rather early. Seems like every teacher end their holiday yesterday. Most of the teachers were present today, including Pengetua. So, I messaged Mr. Chew to see if he is in school. Guess what, indeed he's in school. Actually want use his laptop but too bad, he didn't bring down. Ok, we discussed about the trainings throughout the year. I guess there is about 10 plus trainings next year. More to come. He even suggested that we should go to Gunung Ledang to climb Mountain during the June holidays. I guessed I will discuss with my team mates about it. Maybe some other place? Like Genting? Cameron? Nah, anywhere is okay. As long as no paper work for me. =)

Alright after that, met Nelson in kooperasi. Man, I'm so touched(?). He bought me a Lighter for my birthday present! It's really nice. Pictures will be uploaded soon. Thanks Dude. So, me, Ashwin, and Nelson went to chemistry lab and busybody a bit with Noor-Ul Aida, our add maths teacher. What we saw? FINAL EXAMINATION RESULTS! Alright, so I got no.6 in the whole form. Well, a little surprise for me. Just a little. As you all know, everyone score well because of SMS TIPS from everywhere. Ivan no.2, Me no.6, Sean no.9, Jet no.(?) and Jon no.11. Sadly, all of us same class except Jethro. Anyhow, lets look forward. Class doesn't matter. What matters is our SPM results right? Other results are just for show. Nothing to boast about.

Head to CS right after Nelson finished his job at Koop. Went summer for lunch. I guessed it's the first time Ash visited right? Nice? Nice? Bring you eat some more next time. Went for a walk right after that. I met a pair of couples. I'm not going to revealed the name here nor I am telling you who. I abandoned Ashwin and Nelson right after that. I just love to chat with the 2 couples. We keep chatting until around 3 something and here comes Jonathan. Well, he knows the couple too. So, 4 of us chat chat chat until 4pm. After that Jon and I head to Omega for tuition.

Alright, thats all about today's matter. I have been trying hard to stop thinking of you. But why the more I want to do that, the more she will appear in my mind. Fate is always playing with me. I'm not sure how long more I can play with you fate. I just know it won't be long. As long as I'm living, you will comtinue play with me. Play play play play. Never stop. I just can't stop thinking of her. The more I don't want to meet her, the more i will meet her. (hypothesis?) Therefore, stop thinking of her is possible. Action speaks louder than words, yet it's just words, no action. I still miss her everyday.

I miss you, take care always.
Atzs

2009

2009-01-01T09:54:00.000-08:00

I guess it's my turn to start a blog. Right? But I still think blogging is quite a waste of time. Pardon me for saying this.

Time passed so fast. In just one blink, and a year just flew pass me. I'm really happy that 2008 is gone now. I seriously telling you that my 2008 was a fucking year to me. I lost many things in life. I lose many things in life. I cried the most this year compared to the days after 4 years old. I really hope 2009 will be a GREAT year to me. A year full of success, happiness, and most importantly, in a pink of health. =).

New Year day is just like any normal day to me. No plans, no party, no outing. Unfortunately, I had chemistry tuition today. I didn't expect the class to be so BIG. I'm not sure how many, but it's just BIG. At least I learn something new every class. Unlike some people who go tuition to chat with friends. Please don't feel offended as I am jsut giving a general statement without any names attached.

2009 will be a great year...
Atzs.